Single Survival

Originally Posted 8/2013

A pastor friend recently asked me a question.  We had been talking about the challenges to being an “older” single and his query was this, “Elaine, how do I convince young people that marriage isn’t the Promised Land?  If you are married, great!  Make it a great marriage, make great memories.  Enjoy it.  If you are single, enjoy doing the things that married people can’t do, and make it a great life.  Both have their pros and cons.  But it seems young people struggle to believe that.  How do I convince them that marriage isn’t necessarily the dream world they think it’s going to be?”  My answer was simply, “You don’t.” Why not?  Because most singles are not going to believe that marriage is not what they have always dreamed it to be.  You would have a better shot at convincing them that it is possible to live a happy fulfilled life outside of marriage.

I’m 30.  I never had any intentions of being 30 and still single.  I was planning to be a housewife chasing kids and homeschooling by now.  I will readily admit that life’s deviation from what I had in mind has not been an easy adjustment, but little by little I am learning that, “It is what I make it.”  In the process, I’m realizing that there are some key factors to being content with where I am in life…and I thought I would share a few of them.

1.       Let the dream die.  Dreaming of marriage and having kids is something that happens naturally.  Most girls start planning their weddings as small girls playing Barbies and dress up.  Those dreams continue through adolescence…college…the early days of a career…  By the time a girl is in her early to mid-20s, the fact that her dream is not coming true starts to become painful.  As the years roll by, if Mr. Right still doesn’t appear, the pain begins to increase, and soon, what started as a fairytale dream of a little girl with stars in her eyes has become the living nightmare of a young woman with tears in her eyes. 

The most logical solution is to simply quit dreaming of white dresses, flowers, and the first kiss…but that can be really hard to do.  Somehow letting those dreams die feels like admitting to some sort of “failure” or being an “old maid.”  It also seems to guarantee that the dream will never come true. 

Obviously,  not spending your Friday nights bawling your eyes out while pouring over bridal magazines has nothing to do with failure or being an old maid, and certainly has no impact on if or when Mr. Right is going to materialize…so the challenge becomes convincing your emotions to follow your logic.  The sooner you move on and get excited about living life as it stands, the easier the wait for a spouse is going to be.  Stop planning life in terms of “I will do this until I get married,” and start building the kind of life you can be happy living if you never marry.  When Ms. True-Love shows up, having a solid walk with God, an established role in the church, a good job, and a nice house won’t in any way discourage her from liking you…I promise.

2.       There is work to do in the Kingdom of God.  I have found it is very hard to be miserable when I’m watching the kids in my Sunday School class pray through, spending my Friday nights discipling a new convert, or pouring endless hours into a struggling young person.  The point at which I find my niche in the work of God and allow Him to use me as He desires is an enormous step toward being truly happy with whatever road God has chosen for my life.  As a side note, not all ministry is going to make itself obvious.  Thinking outside the box can be very useful in looking for ways to be involved in the work of God.

3.       Fellowship and friendships.  One of the challenges of being an “older” single is that everyone my age is married with kids.  Married people can’t see the single side of the fence any more than I can see the married side.  You would not believe how often married people ask me, “What are you up to?” and when I say “Cleaning the house,” they respond with, “Why?  It shouldn’t be dirty – you’re single.”  I suppose they think that for my 25th birthday I was automatically given a cleaning genie that miraculously keeps my house spotless with no effort from me…?  But seriously, while I have many married friends and I love them dearly, we are at very different points in life, and in many ways there is a struggle to fully relate to one another.  Consequently, there is a special source of strength in having single friends who truly understand, who don’t have a spouse and kids that need their attention in the evenings when I’m lonely and want someone to talk to, and who inspire me by how they choose to handle their life circumstances.

I feel compelled to add some comments for singles in small churches.  I have read advice about making friends many times, and it only added to my frustration because I was in a church with NOBODY my age.  The general assumption is that the 28-year-old single can just hang out with the teenagers.  They are all single…problem solved.  Anyone who has been in that situation will agree…it doesn’t work!!!  I have found that long-distance friendships with older singles comes the closest to filling the void, although it’s not a perfect solution, and that still leaves the challenge of meeting others to form friendships with.  When I figure out how to solve that challenge I will let you know.  :O) 

4.       A profession that matters.  I have found it makes a huge difference in my attitude if I like my job.  One of the struggles of being single is the necessity of being a breadwinner and homemaker at the same time.  And it’s that much harder to be content when I need to clean the house, I really want to make homemade bread, I desperately need to run to the bank and post office…and I’m stuck sitting in an office doing something I intensely dislike. 

If I could encourage young people to do anything, it would be to pursue a career you will enjoy and can make a comfortable living at. Get a degree, learn a trade, go to grad school…whatever you need to do to make it happen.  Life doesn’t always hand us what we expect; young ladies may not marry immediately, some will be widowed, and young men will someday need to support a family – 40 hours a week for 45 years is a long time to tolerate (or just plain dislike) a job.

5.       It’s not your fault.  I wish every young person could have a mentor that believes they are perfect just the way they are…and who would drive that point home regularly. 

There is a tendency for people to start asking, “Why aren’t you married yet?” when you are about 22.  By the time you hit 25 and nobody “wants” you it starts to mess with your mind, and the people who can’t seem to avoid asking about your single status only compound the problem.  I don’t have a solution to this…other than to realize that not meeting your soul mate has nothing to do with personal defects. 

6.       Control Your Attitude.  I will admit this is easier said than done…to put it mildly…and quite honestly, for many years I didn’t believe it was humanly possible.  But alas!  I am slowly learning that through herculean effort, emotions, moods, and attitudes can be controlled. 

I will eventually blog more on this subject…because it has been a major learning curve for me, and one that I haven’t come close to fully mastering.  One of my biggest frustrations is that people say emotions can be controlled, but they don’t tell you how.  So here are a few of the tactics I have used with some level of success:
·         Set goals and start working toward them.  When a wave of emotion hits, rather than drowning in a sea of tears, focus on the goals and what needs to be done to reach them.  Goals can range from weight loss, to cleaning out a closet, to getting a graduate degree – the key is to pick a goal you can readily accomplish or start working toward in some way.
·         Dream – and not about your wedding.  One day I made a list of every “toy” I want, what it will cost, and the age by which I plan to buy it.  My list includes a hammock, a big trampoline, a sports car, horses, an in ground pool, and my dream house among other things.  It was a fun way to spend a couple hours.
·         Simply refuse to think about it.  This is the hardest tactic, but sometimes it’s the only option.  Simply repeating, “I’m not thinking about this right now” every time an unpleasant thought surfaces really does work.  Usually it starts with me repeating, “I’m not thinking about this right now,” every 45 seconds or so…but eventually I only have to say it every couple hours. 
Overriding intense emotions is not my idea of fun, but frankly, I can either override them and salvage at least part of the joy in my day, or I can give in to them get nothing more than a red nose and puffy eyes out of a wasted day.

7.       His Presence.  Finally, the biggest contentment factor I have found is simply the presence of God.  When I’m at the end of my rope, His presence is my hiding place.  When I want a man to wrap his arms around me, hold me close, and tell me he loves me…when I want a husband so bad it physically hurts…the presence of God is the only substitute that works as a genuine replacement.  Someone told me once that if I was going to cry I needed to climb up in the lap of Jesus to do so.  It was good advice. 

I suspect these principles apply to a wide variety of things in life - learning to not only survive, but truly enjoy life as a single adult is only one application.


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